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Thankyou Ilaria.. Luv ya
I'm trying to do what you all are saying and It's kinda working although we're on holidays for school now, but It's still alright

As long as it works just a little bit, it's worth it.

ok.. i cant do it anymore.. i sooo cant
I hate it sooo much, everything that happens and what i have to put up with
I feel like dying im just so sick of it my whole life is crap except for this board...and everyone on it, thats the only good things i have in my life and mmy friends, but thenn they are gone and its the worst again and everytime! I tried to make things good and then they turn bad again.. nobody even cares about me except for my mum, and the people on this board and thats the truth.. my dad doesnt even care about me!!

Im sorry but thats the way i feel and its never gonna change maybe sometimes but then it goes back to this fkn crap again!!

I'm really sorry for you hunni!
I really hoped that something was changed....I can't say to you any advice(because I don't know the situation perfectly)but I think that in next days you'll feel better than now....these are moments...(hope you get what I mean... )...I can tell you something....yesterday was a very shit day for me...I cryed a lot....I cryed for almost 1 hour and I was screaming as a mad because I was break in pieces...
I understand the feeling to be totally upset and when you feel that everythings round you are shit and you feel like dying and you can't see the escape from that shit and you feel stuck in your life without hope without anything and alone........I KNOW PERFECTLY(trust me)....but life must GO ON...don't think about others....take care on you!
I don't know if I can explaine my self in a right way and honestly I lost by the way what I wanted to say to you.... but....trust me....try to stay up as much as possible...try to be strong....this could help you....
anyway....you know...I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!!
*big big big big big HUGS!!!*xxxxxxx

awwwww thankyou so much Ilaria ILY SO MUCH *huggies back*

I am actually alright now.. which is good, and i know i said that "i cant do it anymore" but im trying extra hard to not be sad anymore and try be happy and not to worry bout anything bad!

Kate, I understand you 100%. In my blog I wrote personal things similar to this, about never being good enough. The only people that care about me are my Mum and Dad. That is it, everyone else eventually gives up, and I'm a nice girl. I'm not horrible, sometimes I think I'm too nice and people just use me.

It's really good to know that this board is helping people, it may be just an online board but it's good we can establish relationships and post things that will cheer one of us up at least 1%. What has Sara done exactly? Life will always throw you shitty things and you've gotta knock em out the way, if everything was easy life would be boring. You're very young and have a whole life ahead of you, I feel like this a lot and it makes me unbelievably sad and lonely I just cry. You're not alone, I'm here for you and I care!

awww thankyou soo much Sarah.. Im trying not to worry about things so much anymore and it is getting better! Love you xxx

OMG
I think i just hate life all together.. if whateva i was sad about eventually got better, it'll just go back to the way it was, and seems like it always does but this time its kinda different its not Sara really at all
I hate telling people why im sad alot because i get sad and upset very easily ..
and i sumtyms cry for a very little thing or wateva but for me its not. I do hate being like this though, lyk how im so emotional and cry easily if ya kno what i mean.. I dont know why im soo shy i hate it but i cant change it : ( I cry heaps at night or in the day.. maybe more than 1ce a day or wateva.
Whenever i have sum1 ova sumtyms mostly alot (mostly talking about one person) and Sara comes back from wherever she was.. i feel like im left out and the person.. jus goes off with her and im left there : (
Thats why i wanna be different.. i dont think im rly any fuun and i dont think they think so either! but i dunno i shuld probly be use to it.. cause its always gonna happen and be like that anyway.........
I jus really hate myself at the moment and i feel soo bad
My mum said she thinks i have depression even though my dad doesnt think so.. i dno if i do??! i dont want to : (
I only know im a veryy saaad person.. but i dont wanna be..
I also kinda dont like telling people on here but i write it here cause its the only place i can talk to people without it being hard to say...

^^ Thats old.

its getting really better. im quite happy alota the time now,, apart from well mostly one thing, dont know how thats gonna change. ): .. ohwell i cant change that so might aswell get on with it. it still hurts though.. mmm things are just good at the moment ,, i like it (: ,, Try be happy .. its good when i am. Made a new friend too, well not exactly new since i havent been on in a long time .. but its goood. (:
Anywayy thats about all.
~ (: xx

I'm glad you're feeling a lot better!

I know its really goood (: , Thankyou Sarah xxx